Full disclosure: I am writing this for my personal goal. That said, the fact I am being compelled to do it does not make what I am about to say any less sincere.
It is rare for me to feel seen. Truly, honestly seen. There are a lot of reasons for that. Some of it is me. It's easier to deflect and to put up fronts. I don't even know that I intend to do it most of the time. The thing is, it's not so much that I'm trying to lie as it is that I'm curating the version of myself that I share. And since I'm being honest, I know that part of that is to protect other people but mostly it is to protect myself. At this point, taking off my mask feels like it should come with a trigger warning, as the kids say. But also most people make it easy to hide. They see what they want to see, and what most of them want to see is... someone else. It usually seems better to avoid that kind of situation altogether.
You are one of the rare people who I have felt able to show myself to, and more than that you're one of the rare people who sees the truth when it's in front of her.
I don't know that I have the words to express how much that means to me, and how much I'll always be grateful that you didn't turn away. I know that we've only known each other for a short while compared to how long your life has been and probably will be, but I have valued every minute of it.
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It is rare for me to feel seen. Truly, honestly seen. There are a lot of reasons for that. Some of it is me. It's easier to deflect and to put up fronts. I don't even know that I intend to do it most of the time. The thing is, it's not so much that I'm trying to lie as it is that I'm curating the version of myself that I share. And since I'm being honest, I know that part of that is to protect other people but mostly it is to protect myself. At this point, taking off my mask feels like it should come with a trigger warning, as the kids say. But also most people make it easy to hide. They see what they want to see, and what most of them want to see is... someone else. It usually seems better to avoid that kind of situation altogether.
You are one of the rare people who I have felt able to show myself to, and more than that you're one of the rare people who sees the truth when it's in front of her.
I don't know that I have the words to express how much that means to me, and how much I'll always be grateful that you didn't turn away. I know that we've only known each other for a short while compared to how long your life has been and probably will be, but I have valued every minute of it.
Thank you for being a friend when I needed one.
Natasha